Red Ships of Scalla-Festa
Refugee
Hewson said:Suicide: A permanent solution to a temporary problem.
agreed.
Hewson said:Suicide: A permanent solution to a temporary problem.
~unforgettableFOXfire~ said:I wont trivialize your problems by saying 'well, other people have it worse',
U2zoogirl said:hi again...
I have food , I have a house, I go to college every day... but I feel a hole that won't be filled with meals or education.... I have lost most important things... my faith, my reason to be here, and I try every morning to find them...
You say that I must be happy because I have so many things that others don't... I know I'm lucky in that way ( in fact we are in war too) but I'm looking for something more... inside of me.
The_Sweetest_Thing said:sorry to interrupt...MCranston, how's it going? Are you going to see Coldplay on Wednesday? Guess who?
U2zoogirl said:Hi Cranston... Well, I'm not american, I'm from Colombia, and we don't fear for our lives from Irak, We fear for our lives from the terrorists and guerrilla.
lorena
U2zoogirl said:Hello!
Thank you all for your replies again. (I don't know what to say but thank you ). Maybe I have to talk to some people I have problems with, But I'm soooo afraid, I'm just don't know where to start to.
Najeena, I'm sorry about your mom. Maybe I'm selfish, with myself and my parents, and I don't wanna hurt them.
Hi Cranston... Well, I'm not american, I'm from Colombia, and we don't fear for our lives from Irak, We fear for our lives from the terrorists and guerrilla.
lorena
Bono=Saint said:I understand your feeling.
Because I have same anguish of heart.
I don't have job,boyfriend,trust friends.
I was afraid pepole.
I thought ,they don't understand.(my family,friends...)
Always ....
But I met U2 song,changing my life a little.
My English not so well.And I started computer in March.
But I want to talk same thinking pepole.
So I made appeal this site last day.
They gave me precious advice.
They gave you,too.
When I was in sorrow,I always comes to my mind U2 lirics.
"Walk on,Electrical storm" etc...
I can't say well.
Sorry.
aww thanksoliveu2cm said:mmmBono. Wow.
mmmBono said:
aww thanks
I'm okay now...I still don't talk to them...it's almost 14 years now. I think I'm much better off without them....sad but true.
no need to apologize! You're Carrie, aren't you? I remember that there's 2 Carries here (atleast) I know HelloAngel is one of them...well if you're Carrie...hi Carrie It's Autumn.oliveu2cm said:
I'm sorry to hear this. I know what you went through wasn't easy in the least. I've realized recently that there are such things as "soul families" which are people completley independent of biologial relations- and these people are who matter and truly care about you rather than fanatical beliefs that were used to "justify" disturbing behavior. ((Soul families/friends))
ugh.. anyway, sorry to go on. I was just taken aback by your post and can't imagine that! I hope they didn't leave a spiritual scar on you & I think it's pretty great you got out & found yourself!
U2zoogirl said:mmmmbono...
I want to be stronger... like you, It was hard, but you did something to make the difference, to be happier and find yourself. I have to make my own choices now and things are changing for me, I guess... If everything goes fine I'll get a job as an Illustrator in a publishing house, and I'll do my best...
wish me luck
bye
Lorena
mmmBono said:
no need to apologize! You're Carrie, aren't you? I remember that there's 2 Carries here (atleast) I know HelloAngel is one of them...well if you're Carrie...hi Carrie It's Autumn.
Luckily I have found soul families since departing my own. I think that without these "soul families", I don't think I would be where I am today. You are so right about what you said here.
Thanks for all the encouraging and kind words...I think I've found myself...although I think it's natural to be full of doubt from time to time. Yes...it was excrutiatingly difficult what I went through...at times I took the blame for their obsessive and fanatical behaviour...like *maybe it was me*, etc. etc... now I know not only did it have NOTHING to do with me, but also that I had NO control over what had happened. Acceptance of this was truly the hardest part. Only recently have I come to this realization.
You brought up the point about spiritual scars....I dunno if I would say I'm completely without them....you tend to never forget when something like this has happened to yourself....I don't dwell on it...but it is there in the back of my mind.
I also, after all this, want nothing to do with anything associated with religion. I even cringe to go into a church...even if it's for a wedding. So that may be a spiritual scar.