floweravalanche
Rock n' Roll Doggie
Thanks for the prayers and hugs etc guys Praying for you Acrobat
Today was a rough day again, another point the fingers at everyone over here when it comes to my Dad being ill and doing stuff for him, of coarse I'm the first blame and the one everyone says is a failure, points fingers at etc.
Its really stressful and its really hurting me emotional I'm close to my Dad's family here have been since I was little, but now I feel like they are not even my family with the way they have been treating me with Daddy being ill and all, I even said you're not my family anymore, family doesn't do the things you're doing now, they are there for support and love and all you're doing is being hateful and hurtful I pretty told them not to speak to me again. There is so much I want to say to them, but I am not a hateful type of person, but all they are doing is making matters worst over here.
They think my Dad doesn't know what is going on, but he does he hears it and sees it which makes him upset etc, which is bad for heart. The doctors said any type of stress can put him back into the hospital and I know all this drama that is going on is stressing him out badly as well as I.
I'm so upset, not just extremely emotionally hurt and heartbroken right now but angry and bitter, I don't want to be this way at all. I miss it when my family understood each another and loved each another now its like we're not even a family. I personally want to get out of here, I'm only staying cause I want to and I need to be there for my Dad, but everyone else wants me gone here. I don't know what to do, I know my faith level is extremely low now and everything, I don't know I just don't know, maybe it would be best if I was gone, I don't know anymore, I give up all together now
Today was a rough day again, another point the fingers at everyone over here when it comes to my Dad being ill and doing stuff for him, of coarse I'm the first blame and the one everyone says is a failure, points fingers at etc.
Its really stressful and its really hurting me emotional I'm close to my Dad's family here have been since I was little, but now I feel like they are not even my family with the way they have been treating me with Daddy being ill and all, I even said you're not my family anymore, family doesn't do the things you're doing now, they are there for support and love and all you're doing is being hateful and hurtful I pretty told them not to speak to me again. There is so much I want to say to them, but I am not a hateful type of person, but all they are doing is making matters worst over here.
They think my Dad doesn't know what is going on, but he does he hears it and sees it which makes him upset etc, which is bad for heart. The doctors said any type of stress can put him back into the hospital and I know all this drama that is going on is stressing him out badly as well as I.
I'm so upset, not just extremely emotionally hurt and heartbroken right now but angry and bitter, I don't want to be this way at all. I miss it when my family understood each another and loved each another now its like we're not even a family. I personally want to get out of here, I'm only staying cause I want to and I need to be there for my Dad, but everyone else wants me gone here. I don't know what to do, I know my faith level is extremely low now and everything, I don't know I just don't know, maybe it would be best if I was gone, I don't know anymore, I give up all together now