Let's see, so last post was a little over a month ago. Lot of stuff has happened since then, but I think I'm feeling better. It's good to be away from all that.
I'm really frustrated still though, because I'd like to think that I'm getting over her, but it's really just as though she's pushed back in my mind due to lack of proximity. Most of the time these days I'm fine and I don't really feel too bad. I still think about her at least once every day though, and for some reasons once in a while I'll have another terribly depressing day. It's all fucked really. As long as I come out of this a better man I'll be satisfied.
As for the screen play, that's sort of been put on hold for now. I haven't had the urge to continue it recently. But do have a wonderful idea for a new screenplay based on a crazy-ass dream I had about a month ago. In my dream I was shot in the gut, and I had about 2 or 3 hours left to live. I was in California or somewhere with a beautiful beach. So I was thinking the one thing I wanted to do before I die was to just find the perfect place to pass away. For some reason that was really important to me. Then as I was walking about searching, I started noticing a lot of beautiful woman, then the goals before I died were to 1: Have sex with a really attractive girl, then 2: Find a beautiful spot to sit and die.
Tell me that's not one fucked up dream. I'm not sure what it means, but I know there's some hardcore phylosophical shit going on there. But anyway, my idea for the screenplay would be that a man is seen doing some activity on a beach, then he finished and crosses it off a list of 10 things to do. It's number 3. The last two things say " 2- Make love to a beautiful young woman" and "1 - Find the perfect spot to die". So this guy walks around hitting on attractive California girls using a slew of cheap pick-up lines. He gets furstrated and to this one girl he flat-out tells her what's going on and what his intentions are. He says 10 days ago he found out he only had that many days left to live, and this is his last day. And one of the last things he has to do is make sexy-time with a beauty like herself.
She doesn't really believe him, but decides the guy's interesting and charming enough to spend the day with him. She has no intentions to sleep with him, but the guy appreciates the company either way, so together the set off to find the perfect spot for him. Throughout the day they share personal stories, and he tells her of the other crazy things he's done on his list. Eventually the girl finds she's fallen in love with him, and as the sun begins to set, and the guy's found the perfect spot, she makes a move and makes love to him there on the beach.
When she wakes up the next morning, she finds him dead on the sand. The cause of his death is never revealed, but we see the girl wipe a couple tears away as she stands up to leave, but she also has a smile on her face.