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I feel like I ever only start depressing threads in ZOO Confessionals.
Anyway, so . . . my deep, dark secret that I've been trying to be vague about and evade questions about is that I've been, more or less, unemployed for over a year now.
I have two part-time attorney jobs, but they still don't add up nearly to what I would be making in a full-time attorney position. So I've been quietly struggling and getting by with these two part-time jobs while trying to find a full-time position at a firm.
So today, I had my second interview at a firm. Cool firm. Good salary. Good benefits. And the attorney that would be my boss, seemed to like me during our first interview, which lasted about an hour and a half. I thought the first interview went well.
Today was my interview with two main partners and then the attorney I interviewed with last week. From the comments that were made during the interview it sounded like, barring a complete fuck up on my part, they were ready to hire me at the end of the interview. And then the bomb dropped:
CONFLICT OF INTEREST.
The firm I do part-time work for now defends clients in lawsuits by Client X. Well, turns out, Client X is the NUMBER ONE client of the new firm I was interviewing with. Therefore, it would be unethical of me to work for the new firm, and they actually, because of their ethical duties to Client X, CANNOT hire me.
You should've seen the look on the face of the attorney who would've been my boss when this came out during the interview. His face mirrored the gut-wrenching sadness that was taking place inside my chest. I have had so few interviews in this economic climate. And not only did I feel good about this one, but they actually SAID they were ready to hire me!
The one who would've been my boss came up to me privately afterward and told me he was deeply sorry and that he really liked me, he liked my character and personality, he really wanted me to join the firm, and he was very sad it didn't work out.
I just tried to keep the fake smile plastered to my face so I wouldn't break down right then and there.
It's one thing if you interview and you don't do well or you're not qualified for the position or you're just not the right fit. But this? This is completely disheartening on a whole other level of Are you fucking kidding me!!!! I have been struggling for so long and I cannot believe the rug was pulled out from under me like this.
LIFE, I think you played a really cruel trick on me today.
Anyway, so . . . my deep, dark secret that I've been trying to be vague about and evade questions about is that I've been, more or less, unemployed for over a year now.
I have two part-time attorney jobs, but they still don't add up nearly to what I would be making in a full-time attorney position. So I've been quietly struggling and getting by with these two part-time jobs while trying to find a full-time position at a firm.
So today, I had my second interview at a firm. Cool firm. Good salary. Good benefits. And the attorney that would be my boss, seemed to like me during our first interview, which lasted about an hour and a half. I thought the first interview went well.
Today was my interview with two main partners and then the attorney I interviewed with last week. From the comments that were made during the interview it sounded like, barring a complete fuck up on my part, they were ready to hire me at the end of the interview. And then the bomb dropped:
CONFLICT OF INTEREST.
The firm I do part-time work for now defends clients in lawsuits by Client X. Well, turns out, Client X is the NUMBER ONE client of the new firm I was interviewing with. Therefore, it would be unethical of me to work for the new firm, and they actually, because of their ethical duties to Client X, CANNOT hire me.
You should've seen the look on the face of the attorney who would've been my boss when this came out during the interview. His face mirrored the gut-wrenching sadness that was taking place inside my chest. I have had so few interviews in this economic climate. And not only did I feel good about this one, but they actually SAID they were ready to hire me!
The one who would've been my boss came up to me privately afterward and told me he was deeply sorry and that he really liked me, he liked my character and personality, he really wanted me to join the firm, and he was very sad it didn't work out.
I just tried to keep the fake smile plastered to my face so I wouldn't break down right then and there.
It's one thing if you interview and you don't do well or you're not qualified for the position or you're just not the right fit. But this? This is completely disheartening on a whole other level of Are you fucking kidding me!!!! I have been struggling for so long and I cannot believe the rug was pulled out from under me like this.
LIFE, I think you played a really cruel trick on me today.