nozomi
The Fly
I pile all new, incoming mail in a box. When the box starts getting full, around the middle of the month--I think to myself "I should take care of that." Unavoidably, there's an interruption--I have a very demanding job, that takes loads and loads of perseverence and patience--After a day or two, I think "I should take care of those bills." After another day, I get a sick, panicky feeling and think "I have to pay the bills, right now!!!" After one more day, (usually the LAST day before my MC is due) I end up doing speedpay and get gacked another 9 dollers. The utility companies and phone bills do NOT have exorbitent late fees, so those arn't as important--so I tend to pay those "whenever". The mortgage bill is ANOTHER bill that I wait till the last second (the day before, usually) and end up using speedpay and get gacked another 9 dollers. (and btw, if you have don't get an Old Navy/Banana Republic/Gap card, cuz if you're late even once they report it to the credit bureau)
This happens every month--and I keep thinking to myself "I need to get a handle on this." I HAVE bought an expanding file and I have bright pink tabs stating when each bill is due--but I am still struggling with managing this more effectively.
Someone has said that procrastination is a sign of worry but I'm not really looking for a diagnosis --I mean, I never used to be this way--I used to look forward to paying the bills--it was a very organized, efficient feeling and I enjoyed the sense of accomplishment and feeling of being in control but now it's different--I seem to dread it, and I go online to moniter my checking account but don't balance my checkbook!!!!because we use checkcards--I transfer them from my purse to little plastic baggies and put them in a file thankfully, we have a 500 dollar overdraft fee in case we get too close to the line. It's insanity. Insanity is doing the same crazy thing over and over even though you know it's insane. This really SHOULD be resolved.
We DO give to charities and church, too! so, it's not that I'm ignoring that aspect of our finances. I don't talk about this with anyone. and darling hubs and I do not DO anything about it, even though we BOTH know there's an issue there.
This happens every month--and I keep thinking to myself "I need to get a handle on this." I HAVE bought an expanding file and I have bright pink tabs stating when each bill is due--but I am still struggling with managing this more effectively.
Someone has said that procrastination is a sign of worry but I'm not really looking for a diagnosis --I mean, I never used to be this way--I used to look forward to paying the bills--it was a very organized, efficient feeling and I enjoyed the sense of accomplishment and feeling of being in control but now it's different--I seem to dread it, and I go online to moniter my checking account but don't balance my checkbook!!!!because we use checkcards--I transfer them from my purse to little plastic baggies and put them in a file thankfully, we have a 500 dollar overdraft fee in case we get too close to the line. It's insanity. Insanity is doing the same crazy thing over and over even though you know it's insane. This really SHOULD be resolved.
We DO give to charities and church, too! so, it's not that I'm ignoring that aspect of our finances. I don't talk about this with anyone. and darling hubs and I do not DO anything about it, even though we BOTH know there's an issue there.