arw
Blue Crack Addict
My birthday is on Friday. 
I've never dreaded anything more in my life than this Friday. I don't want to be 30. I don't have job because I just got laid off, again. Unemployed seems to be attached to my name the past few years. Due to that my parents basement is where I call home. It's not a bad setup I have here but it's just gotten old. I live in a brand new house and I have two bedrooms and a bathroom. My parents never ever come down here. I have all the privacy I want unless I go upstairs. I don't pay a cent to live here. They pay for my phone, cable, and high speed internet. So I really can't complain too much but it's just hard to be here.....at 30. I have to tell them every detail of my life if I leave the house or come in late, which makes me feel like I'm a little kid. But living with my parents is just part of it. I know it's just a number but I always thought I'd be somewhere at 30 instead of being single and unemployed. Where that somewhere is I'll never know. If I knew I'd go after it. It's even harder to see my 25 year old sister on her own with a career making decent money. 
I just don't want to be 30.
I've never dreaded anything more in my life than this Friday. I don't want to be 30. I don't have job because I just got laid off, again. Unemployed seems to be attached to my name the past few years. Due to that my parents basement is where I call home. It's not a bad setup I have here but it's just gotten old. I live in a brand new house and I have two bedrooms and a bathroom. My parents never ever come down here. I have all the privacy I want unless I go upstairs. I don't pay a cent to live here. They pay for my phone, cable, and high speed internet. So I really can't complain too much but it's just hard to be here.....at 30. I have to tell them every detail of my life if I leave the house or come in late, which makes me feel like I'm a little kid. But living with my parents is just part of it. I know it's just a number but I always thought I'd be somewhere at 30 instead of being single and unemployed. Where that somewhere is I'll never know. If I knew I'd go after it. It's even harder to see my 25 year old sister on her own with a career making decent money. I just don't want to be 30.
Really-it's not that bad! It's just a number!! Hey, I am 44 and I remember when my friend fret and fret, cried because her 30th Birthday was coming and she just couldn't face it. Like you, she thought things would be different by then! Anytime you want to, you can turn it around, just don't give up! Here, I was looking at 44, unemployed for 4 months, and separated. Well, I found the answer when I went to college. I got a job AT the college, applied for financial aid to go to school, and filed for divorce all in one year. but at least I am on my way to something, and on to my dreams. I know, not everyone is like me, and maybe the answer for you isn't school, but keep looking, you will find..well, what you are looking for! 
Good Luck!
Now, I don't know why that one was so hard, but it was. I guess because I feel like I'm finally leaving my chance to be young behind.
But, then, at the same time you love it. Writers are so weird!
Why did I reply to this old thread again?
Prime meat for me!
