I hate work

[preciousstone]

I hate my job. It's as boring as a dog's ass. I'm a contract compliance specialist where I review insurance claims on worker's compensation accounts and make sure they are paid correct. I am only temporary, and can you believe this f***ing job requires a bachelor's degree PLUS 5 years Medical Billing experience? Neither of which I do have, but this job is so incredibly f***ing easy, I learned it in just a couple of days without any real training. A coworker went through with the procedures once and I got it after that.
Anyway, I am so frustrated that I am overqualified for this job and I'm not being considered an applicant as a permanent employee. And during the day I write chapters in my autobiography, that one day I DREAM of getting published.

This is what I wrote today, a small poem, and it took me ten minutes:
"I keep forgetting all the promises
I've made myself
putting myself last
time goes by oh so fast
tomorrow is already the past...

I picture myself a star
where everyone knows
who you are
but I never stray...that far

Sippin my tea on a Sunday afternoon
daydreaming about becoming somebody special soon
sitting there, doing nothing about it
until I'm suddenly staring at the moon

My life- it feels like a waste
My life- there's no one else to blame
My life- feels like a cut and paste
My life- nothing special, no fame
I work all day
got nothing left for anything else
I work to live and live to work
While my existance is as good as dirt

And I feel as if I don't matter
my position, replaceable
the memory of me eraseable
the vision of me invisible
My dreams, unfeasible

Costs me my talent
my happiness
my energy
there's nothing left good in me

I don't know my path
but I know that the one I'm on
is taking me somewhere I do not belong."


I think I am a writer, and I should be doing something that is within my talent, not some dead-end job that bores me to death. I only work because my family will not support me, emotionally and physically, if I don't work an 8-5 job. What do yall think?

 

[fly so high!]

You are not alone sweety......lots of people is your posi!.....Keep writing and voting and protesting!!

PS:

 

[Liesje]

I don't know much about writing, but it seems like a hard industry to break into. Could you become a writing teacher or professor? Then you've got a full time job, plus time and resources (and the expectation) to pursue your own projects on the side.

 

[BonosBaby12]

I don't know much about writing, but it seems like a hard industry to break into. Could you become a writing teacher or professor? Then you've got a full time job, plus time and resources (and the expectation) to pursue your own projects on the side.

It really is a hard industry to break into Im a freelance writer. Still trying to work my way up higher. However I have a backup law career that Im working on right now.

Precious I can understand what you are going through hope everything becomes better for you soon. If a writer is what you really want to be than never give up on that dream. Good luck with it all

 

[preciousstone]

Well I'm multi-talented, I come up with ideas for television shows, movies, I'm even in the process of writing an autobiography which I'm going to turn into a fictional book, with additives that make it more funnier, dramatic, etc. I write poems and song lyrics at the drop of a hat, I even hum my own tunes and will come up with a good verse right out of nowhere.
I'm so weird that I can listen to a U2 song and envision music videos, but they are MY music videos, like I'm directing them. Like for instance, there's a bar where it's always packed and I envisioned Bono walking through when everything around him is slightly blurry, and varies in slow motion and fast forward, back to a pause, and in color, and it's a smoke filled room and he's singing the lyrics to "When I look at the world". (This was even before the movie CLick came out) * I can go on about the rest of the video stuff too, but don't want to bore anyone.
My imagination is exploding but I feel it's a waste. You know what potential is? It's a tease. A rotten tease.
And a brilliant mind, for me, is a disease. I wish I was a lot dumber so I wouldn't notice the difference of living up my "potential" and knowing that I'm capable of something more and actually be satisfied with what I've got, rather than knowing it and longing for it and beating myself up about it.

 

[TranceEnding]

I think I am a writer, and I should be doing something that is within my talent, not some dead-end job that bores me to death.

Then, don't do it.

Lifes too short

 

[JanuaryStar]

I second that, life is too short to be doing something you absolutely do not like!!

Go for it, go for something you really like doing