Hey Brenda, keep your chin up. I've been at the same place since i graduated from college--a non-profit--where i'm the only full-time staff person so the director leans on me a lot and she's a pain in the butt to work for (i won't get into that). anyway, for about the past year i've wanted to leave but for various reasons (money, guilt, lack of motivation, etc.) i couldn't get up the guts to tell her. Finally, though, a few weeks ago i let her know i am leaving after xmas and it's like a whole new world is open to me. (and Streets was what got me fired up on the way to work one day to get up the guts to tell her!)
but i know exactly what you mean about tunnel vision and all, there are a few days whenthe world seems so full of possibilities for me and other days (most days) when i feel like, what do i have to offer anyone? That whole "i can conquer the world" feeling I had when i graduated is gone and i'm in this rut. the worst is, after two years at a job where i basically wanted to leave once i started, i;m scared to commit to something that might get me stuck again...but i guess that's life...anyway, what's helped me is to figure out what really gets me going, what inspires me, what pisses me off & makes me want to change things, and then try to figure out what kind of work would give me outlets for all that. i also have a hard time bc i'd like to stay in non-profit work, but it's tough when all my friends are earning 3 times as much as me doing computer stuff...i like to think as if money doesn't matter to me, but sadly it does make a difference (especially when i'm trying to pay off student loans)
sorry for the babble but don't feel like you're alone. what makes you great is the fact that you realize you're unhappy and you want to do something about it. think of how many people stay in the same career all their lives and get so sucked in by their work that they can't even really see that their unhappiness is because of their job.
