LikeNoOneBefore
Refugee
Okay so if you recall a little while ago, I talked about my best guy friend who has been confused about his sexuality for a while. Well, a few days ago was his birthday, and we spent the whole day before together. At the end of the day, we were upstairs in his room, laying on his bed with the lights off and talking (yes only talking I'm serious haha). He had his arms around me the entire time and he was playing with my hair, which is out of character even for him. He's usually really affectionate with me, but this was just out of the ordinary. He kept taking my hands and kissing them or putting them up to his lips and I seriously thought that this was it for a second. That he was going to kiss me or ask me out or I don't know. Anyway, ironically enough, he was talking about all the random love interests that were confusing him. I, being the passive and nice person I am, listened. And also, he did something a little more not-just-friends-like. He accidentally (yes, accident) touched my chest and was like "Oh wait that's not your stomach!" And I moved his hand and was like, "No THIS is my stomach." And he said, "Uhh could you show me again because there isn't that much of a difference. I can't tell" which is a joke between us because I'm not exactly the curviest girl in school. 
...but the fact that he actually SAID "could you show me again" made me do the 
face. Later on, I kind of laughed and said, "I need a man." And he said, "You'll get one soon." And then I thought he said, "Maybe tonight." I thought I heard him wrong so I was like "What?" and he switched subjects. I COULD have heard that last part wrong, but I really don't know. (And don't think that he's just wanting me romantically or something because I'm his friend and single. We're way close. He wouldn't do that to me.)
So the next day was actually his birthday. He called me out of the blue and asked me to go to the mall so I came along. Later though, I find out that I've been invited to go out to dinner with his parents and ten year old brother (who wasn't supposed to come along but did). This was odd because I've never gone out to eat with JUST him and his parents before. So I thought of it as some meet the parents sort of thing and I was thinking "Err okay?"
Before we left though, his brother was putting up a huge fight and putting a lot of stress on the family, and for a brief few minutes, it was only going to be him, me and his mom. Of course, he was hurt that his dad and brother weren't going to be there and he was probably pretty embarassed that all of this was happening so he stormed out of the house into the garage. I followed him out, and I grabbed him by the shoulder, turned him around and hugged him. He buried his face in my shoulder and just held me as tight as he could which is also not a common thing for him to do. I think he started tearing up a bit (probably not only from how embarassed he was but also because I gave him like THE MOST AMAZING birthday gift ever earlier that day hahaha) which also surprised me. So we both didn't say anything, and the moment the door to the garage opened, he jumped away from me.
Now after all this happened, I'm thinking "Wow this just might be it. We might be together finally!" And then, little do I know that a few hours later, he would say yes to this guy who asked him out. ...the same guy he was saying he didn't really like but who liked him. Oh. My. Gosh. So I find out the NEXT DAY after school, AFTER all my friends have found out! I, his best friend, was not notified, although he said he called me. (My cell was on all night. He didn't.) So this is how it played out when I found out:
Him: *walking with his new boyfriend, unknown to me*
Me: *runs to catch up*
Him: ...yeah everybody knows already!
Me: Knows about what?
Them: *awkward silence, shifty eyes*
Him: Hahaha funny that SHE doesn't know!
Me: Know what? I didn't hear the whole thing! What? Do I know this already?
Him: Probably.
Me: Well, then tell me!
(A few minutes later)
Me: *links arms with him and walks away* Okay so what don't I know? What happened?
Him: Uhh me and Eric are dating.
Me: Oh. *unlinks arm, walks away quickly so he doesn't see me crying*
I was basically a wreck after school. I kind of walked around half-dead and didn't talk to anyone. He knew I was upset because after he got out of rehearsal and saw me gathering my things (I was not in rehearsal with him. I was some where else.) he came over, hugged me and was like "Tracy what's wroooong? I loooove you!"
So yeah...I didn't tell him. But he apparently talked to other people about it because three of my friends know that I was upset but don't know why. (There are probably more that know I was upset.) I hardly talked to anyone else after school that day. I went home, didn't call him and didn't IM him.
And now, I think he's okay but he thinks I'm mad, I think. (That was a lot of thinks.) I don't know if I should talk to him about it or what. I'm really torn on this whole issue. His parents are basically ignoring him now that they found out about his boyfriend. His boyfriend, who used to be really friendly to me, won't even say hi to me or smile or anything. In addition, my friend's already avoiding the guy because he skipped rehearsals for TWO DAYS with no explanation. His boyfriend's visibly mad about it.
Part of me thinks they'll be over soon, but even so, I don't want this awkwardness in between us. He already knows how I feel so I really don't know what to say. This is all so complicated and ANY advice at all would be appreciated.
(If you read that whole thing, you deserve a gold star...or a cookie or something...
)
...but the fact that he actually SAID "could you show me again" made me do the face. Later on, I kind of laughed and said, "I need a man." And he said, "You'll get one soon." And then I thought he said, "Maybe tonight." I thought I heard him wrong so I was like "What?" and he switched subjects. I COULD have heard that last part wrong, but I really don't know. (And don't think that he's just wanting me romantically or something because I'm his friend and single. We're way close. He wouldn't do that to me.)So the next day was actually his birthday. He called me out of the blue and asked me to go to the mall so I came along. Later though, I find out that I've been invited to go out to dinner with his parents and ten year old brother (who wasn't supposed to come along but did). This was odd because I've never gone out to eat with JUST him and his parents before. So I thought of it as some meet the parents sort of thing and I was thinking "Err okay?"
Before we left though, his brother was putting up a huge fight and putting a lot of stress on the family, and for a brief few minutes, it was only going to be him, me and his mom. Of course, he was hurt that his dad and brother weren't going to be there and he was probably pretty embarassed that all of this was happening so he stormed out of the house into the garage. I followed him out, and I grabbed him by the shoulder, turned him around and hugged him. He buried his face in my shoulder and just held me as tight as he could which is also not a common thing for him to do. I think he started tearing up a bit (probably not only from how embarassed he was but also because I gave him like THE MOST AMAZING birthday gift ever earlier that day hahaha) which also surprised me. So we both didn't say anything, and the moment the door to the garage opened, he jumped away from me.
Now after all this happened, I'm thinking "Wow this just might be it. We might be together finally!" And then, little do I know that a few hours later, he would say yes to this guy who asked him out. ...the same guy he was saying he didn't really like but who liked him. Oh. My. Gosh. So I find out the NEXT DAY after school, AFTER all my friends have found out! I, his best friend, was not notified, although he said he called me. (My cell was on all night. He didn't.) So this is how it played out when I found out:
Him: *walking with his new boyfriend, unknown to me*
Me: *runs to catch up*
Him: ...yeah everybody knows already!
Me: Knows about what?
Them: *awkward silence, shifty eyes*
Him: Hahaha funny that SHE doesn't know!
Me: Know what? I didn't hear the whole thing! What? Do I know this already?
Him: Probably.
Me: Well, then tell me!
(A few minutes later)
Me: *links arms with him and walks away* Okay so what don't I know? What happened?
Him: Uhh me and Eric are dating.
Me: Oh. *unlinks arm, walks away quickly so he doesn't see me crying*
I was basically a wreck after school. I kind of walked around half-dead and didn't talk to anyone. He knew I was upset because after he got out of rehearsal and saw me gathering my things (I was not in rehearsal with him. I was some where else.) he came over, hugged me and was like "Tracy what's wroooong? I loooove you!"
So yeah...I didn't tell him. But he apparently talked to other people about it because three of my friends know that I was upset but don't know why. (There are probably more that know I was upset.) I hardly talked to anyone else after school that day. I went home, didn't call him and didn't IM him.
And now, I think he's okay but he thinks I'm mad, I think. (That was a lot of thinks.) I don't know if I should talk to him about it or what. I'm really torn on this whole issue. His parents are basically ignoring him now that they found out about his boyfriend. His boyfriend, who used to be really friendly to me, won't even say hi to me or smile or anything. In addition, my friend's already avoiding the guy because he skipped rehearsals for TWO DAYS with no explanation. His boyfriend's visibly mad about it.
Part of me thinks they'll be over soon, but even so, I don't want this awkwardness in between us. He already knows how I feel so I really don't know what to say. This is all so complicated and ANY advice at all would be appreciated.
(If you read that whole thing, you deserve a gold star...or a cookie or something...
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if I found out a girl who I was dating was lesbian or bi...
