I'm having one of those days where I experience total self-doubt and I feel like I could never feel better again. Eventually I do, but this time I'm not so sure.
I feel as though everything I thought I knew about myself is all a lie and a delusion. I thought I had common sense, apparently I don't. I thought I had a good grip on myself, I don't. I thought I was nice and fun, I'm not. I just feel like I've convinced myself of all these good qualities, but they are all delusions and in truth I'm nothing. Well, not nothing, but I'm not what I thought I was. Its like I'm one big lie.
I just don't know where to begin to pick myself up again. I don't want to go back believing that I have those qualities when I probably never did have them anyway. I just don't want to lie to myself anymore, but also don't know where to begin to fix myself. I feel like I have to wear a mask and armor so the whole world won't see the real me. I also wonder if there's honestly anyone out there who really knows who they are and is comfortable in their skin. Is there ever any hope or is life one big lie?
I feel as though everything I thought I knew about myself is all a lie and a delusion. I thought I had common sense, apparently I don't. I thought I had a good grip on myself, I don't. I thought I was nice and fun, I'm not. I just feel like I've convinced myself of all these good qualities, but they are all delusions and in truth I'm nothing. Well, not nothing, but I'm not what I thought I was. Its like I'm one big lie.
I just don't know where to begin to pick myself up again. I don't want to go back believing that I have those qualities when I probably never did have them anyway. I just don't want to lie to myself anymore, but also don't know where to begin to fix myself. I feel like I have to wear a mask and armor so the whole world won't see the real me. I also wonder if there's honestly anyone out there who really knows who they are and is comfortable in their skin. Is there ever any hope or is life one big lie?