girlhappy
War Child
In fact, Christmas Eve is critical time for me. But the whole week before Christmas is actually very tempting time for me. No wonder: i am part of the broken home, unemployed, without boyfriend, still living with my mum. I have tried everything to ease my pain about it - to do good things etc. So, dont try to suggest something like that. I just dont have a life, actually. i am usually literally ill before Christmas, because 2nd year in the row i dont even have a job at that time. it is humiliating to go to your family you see once a year - young ones have a jobs and families, i am like an outsider. i will try to see people and go out, but deep in the heart i know its not the atmosphere of love EVER. It is all superficial and deep in my heart i am alone forever. And Christmas is for those who have luck, like life itself. I am trying really hard to fight my bright destiny, but as i grow older seems to me...almost everything is out of control (something familiar with Bonos song, actually).
Love, poverty etc.
Love, poverty etc.