BabyGrace
Refugee
Im scared to confess this, but there's this guy at my church that I have a crush on, and I am in love with the warmth I feel radiating from him, the honesty of everything he says, and the music he creates (he plays at the Taize worship service at our church...in fact he has made me fall in love with this style of worship; it's the first kind that has ever felt right for me). I've mentioned him before in another thread; he was a troubled teen that got into some pretty serious drug problems and turned his life around later through his belief in God, and everything about him is so inspiring, you can literally feel his belief and how powerful it is when he's praying for us, and there's nothing put-on or fake about it; he doesn't care if he seems ridiculous or anything. And he is so wonderful to everyone, and humble too, he is so embarrassed when people thank him for being honest. But it doesn't matter really because he is leaving now to go start a youth ministry somewhere else in NJ, but still it's so wrong and retarded on so many different levels that I just have to confess it to somebody......I mean, he's probably a good 6 years older than me (I don't even know his age but this is nothing new for me), I don't talk to him that much because I only see him on Sundays, and when he's singing I jsut can't help making eye contact with him, I try not to but it just happens anyway. And probably half the service Im thinking about him rather than what I should be thinking about.
Well this is certainly embarrassing... but for anyone who ever says they're a loser because of this kind of thing, I am sure that I just one-upped you all.
Well this is certainly embarrassing... but for anyone who ever says they're a loser because of this kind of thing, I am sure that I just one-upped you all.