I appreciate that a lot.
But, I wonder if that's how it sounds when I say it to someone else - there's really nothing you (ladyluck) can do. But I appreciate it anyway.
I have said that
"just tell me if I can help you in someway"
myself to others, and it's so strange, because I know I can't really do anything about it. I want to, and if I could I would, but I can't. All I can do is offer some sort of support, from a distance, and it's so......... it feels so minimal, so small, so......... insignificant.
I wish I could have a greater impact in some situations.
Or just do something
Or....... comfort someone, or protect someone, or show someone that I care. But there is so little I can do.
I hate that.... having to watch. HAving to react, and not being able to act in your own means. It is a difficult thing for anyone, I am sure.
A really close friend of mine was talking about some thing. SHe is always so good at hiding her emotions. So everything was normal. And we were talking online... but then.... and she's been hinting at it for a while, but..... all of a sudden..... it was...... she was talking about how things were really getting bad, and she was really unhappy in her life..... And that's all I'll say for now, but I'm just very concerned. And I can't get in touch with her in any way, so...... I'm kind of hoping we can talk at some point. Soon. Hopefully............
I don't even know what is wrong. APperantly, a lot of family events have taken place recently. ANd it looked like she was...... reaching out for me..... but now I can't...... even speak with her, so it's really...... awkward and uncomfortable for me, and I know it's probably not so great for her, either.
I don't like not being able to be there for people when they need me. (But I know that is essentially a petty thing, "my own needs" compared to someone else's).
And there is a birthday in her family this weekend, so, I can only imagine what sort of stress that will add to her. She's one of those people who pretends not to be emotional, or sensitive, but is infact very capable of getting emotionally hurt. It's not a maturity thing, it's just........ personality types.
So yeah, I'm concerned about this friend.
ANd I'm worried about my mother
I've moved out of our old home, so now it's just her there. She had someone ready to biuy it, so she could move out, but that didn't work out. And then someone else, a friend of a friend, wanted to buy it, but that didn't work out. ANd now, someone else, long story short, did the same thing. So..... she's worried about stuff, and I don't like her living alone, especially when the winter comes. But now, once again, I am away from the situation, and can do very little about it.
I don't like watching people..... struggle........ I supppose that's a good way to put it. or suffer, that's another word. I know that some of this "isn't my business", but then again, it is, because I do care. SO........
it's just odd at this moment .
I won't get "stuck in a moment I can't get out of", though. Personally, I'm fine. But.... I've realized that life isn't really about me so much.
Maybe I'll try to read the poem again.
-- though just in my mind, because I'm at work!!
, even if I don't know her and there's nothing in the world I can do for her
