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I have no idea what, specifically, I'm going to type here, so this should prove to be interesting, at least to me.
I'm 34, and truly, lead a great life, I'm lucky, very lucky, and I know it.
I have a great set of parents who I'm proud to count as friends, love my sister and my small extended family, too. My childhood was very middle class, in NYC, so I was exposed to so many different cultures and culture itself while growing up. Had a fairly good education, etc.
My career is going pretty well, and I love the field I work in, even after 11 years of doing it. I've managed to do well in my field without clawing my way up, you know? Just work hard, and, good things seem to keep happening for me. Again, I'm lucky.
Also, I LOVE my friends. Cannot believe that a dork like me has accumulated so many quality people to sprinkle around the different phases of my life. I now have friends in a lot of major US cities, decent amount here in LA and back home in NYC, it's really gratifying for me. Again. Lucky.
Lastly, I have a lot of interests that keep me wholly occupied. Music, reading, writing, playing and watching sports, travel, films, learning, etc. I'm never bored.
So, what's the problem? Well, I'm single, and, kind of content to be that way. Yet, I want a family and kids, too. If my life were bad...if I felt bored...or lonely....or desperate to meet someone before I get too damned old....I might be more proactive. But I really love my life, and this precludes me from trying to meet people....especially women. I'm human, so, yeah, there are times that I miss all the positives that go with being in a good relationship, but those times are pangs, not long-lasting states of mind. I love the company of women greatly, platonic or romantic, I find that it allows me to display a side of myself I'm not normally allowed to show.
I don't know my point, really. I don't know if I am looking for advice, feedback, anything. For all I know, people will read this and want me to shut up, now. I don't know.
I just know that I feel like I'm caught between 2 people....the 1 that likes all my freedom (not freedom to see tons of women, nothing like that, just freedom in general)...and the 1 that wants to start a family eventually. There are worse problems to have, this I know. But, for now, this is my problem and thus, regardless of how much worse things could be, it demands some measure of attention from me.
Thanks for reading this.
I'm 34, and truly, lead a great life, I'm lucky, very lucky, and I know it.
I have a great set of parents who I'm proud to count as friends, love my sister and my small extended family, too. My childhood was very middle class, in NYC, so I was exposed to so many different cultures and culture itself while growing up. Had a fairly good education, etc.
My career is going pretty well, and I love the field I work in, even after 11 years of doing it. I've managed to do well in my field without clawing my way up, you know? Just work hard, and, good things seem to keep happening for me. Again, I'm lucky.
Also, I LOVE my friends. Cannot believe that a dork like me has accumulated so many quality people to sprinkle around the different phases of my life. I now have friends in a lot of major US cities, decent amount here in LA and back home in NYC, it's really gratifying for me. Again. Lucky.
Lastly, I have a lot of interests that keep me wholly occupied. Music, reading, writing, playing and watching sports, travel, films, learning, etc. I'm never bored.
So, what's the problem? Well, I'm single, and, kind of content to be that way. Yet, I want a family and kids, too. If my life were bad...if I felt bored...or lonely....or desperate to meet someone before I get too damned old....I might be more proactive. But I really love my life, and this precludes me from trying to meet people....especially women. I'm human, so, yeah, there are times that I miss all the positives that go with being in a good relationship, but those times are pangs, not long-lasting states of mind. I love the company of women greatly, platonic or romantic, I find that it allows me to display a side of myself I'm not normally allowed to show.
I don't know my point, really. I don't know if I am looking for advice, feedback, anything. For all I know, people will read this and want me to shut up, now. I don't know.
I just know that I feel like I'm caught between 2 people....the 1 that likes all my freedom (not freedom to see tons of women, nothing like that, just freedom in general)...and the 1 that wants to start a family eventually. There are worse problems to have, this I know. But, for now, this is my problem and thus, regardless of how much worse things could be, it demands some measure of attention from me.
Thanks for reading this.