Okay I need help.
I hit the wall. A lot. If I have something on on a Saturday night, it's like my subconscious goes "ooh, pressure's on, you've gotta drink big!!" and you know how you can make yourself sick by thinking about it? I think it's like that. Tonight was my good friend's 21st. I'd been looking forward to it for ages. I had three beers, two jelly shots and two wet pussy shots. Not even tipsy. I got, well, I guess bloated is the best way to describe it all. It all sits in my chest and I feel sick. It's 330, I just got home and I'm sober as dogs balls. Extremely pissed off. More so because I know I can drink. If I go round to a mates joint on a Friday night I'll knock back six beers no worries and could easily keep going. And once in a blue moon I can drink and keep drinking. I hate this wall-hitting. It stops me having fun. What's the solution here? Should I just shove my fingers down my throat and spew? I'm hesitant because I haven't spewed in 15 years so I've developed a phobia of it. Someone help me cos it's ruining my life!!!!!
Also please kindly note this is no place or time for adulty "that's a good thing you hit the wall" "you don't need alcohol to have fun" etc type comments.